Dreamers Paradise

Friday, August 21, 2015

The problems traveling creates


People want to know what you did, where you went and where you are going next.
You crave authentic food that isn't found in the USA, right now I'm thinking about mozzarella de buffalo which is only found in Italy. 
You make friends with people you will most likely only stay in contact with via Facebook 
When you open your Facebook your news feed is full of updates on events around the world, thanks to all those friends who participate and post
Your sense of style isn't from any one country, but all places you have ben too
When you here of tragic events your heart and mind go to friends living in the area
Your heart is never at rest since you 'left a piece of your heart in everyplace you've been'
With people that don't travel you have to find other common ground
People ask you how you can afford all the trips and time off (answer: it is a priority to me so all my time and money is spent traveling)
When things don't work out by putting down roots, you always have that desire to fill the void in your life with new places. 
You attend events where all your friends gather and you feel strangely out of place since they are married, engaged or have a baby. 



You feel out of place, traveling is like a drug to me. I use it as my shield and my excuse. When you travel and have been around the world to some 22 or so countries you are just cool & "interesting" right? What happens when you are flat out broke and can no longer use it as a shield, or you just feel like you are bragging or "one-upping" so you refrain from sharing, then what do I talk about. 
What happens when you are done running away and want to start running to something. Everyone looks at my life and thinks, "wow what a great life, traveling not worrying about a thing". But while traveling everyone has moved into the next stage of life and suddenly you find yourself alone. You become slightly uncertain of who you are. I mean you have always been going somewhere and now you are ready to settle down… will people still be your friend and think your cool enough to hang out. Will people still find you "interesting" enough to talk to. 
Like an addict there comes a time when you hit bottom and are ready to grow up, face your problems, but the problem is you don't know what the problem is. You just know when you aren't traveling you are restless, but the secretly it feels good to be grounded, it feels nice to have someone to come home to, that wants you. 
Maybe thats why I'm running, to find that someone even if it is just me. 

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